bruised but laughing.

Inspired by anak aku sendiri - dia buas dan aktif, bila jatuh atau luka, nangis sikit, then sambung main, once in a while datang mengadu kat aku atau ibu dia pasal jatuh dan luka, tapi dia tetap terus main dengan muka yang sangat happy.

Kita pun sama. Ada hari kita jatuh, ada hati yang tercalar, tapi esoknya kita tetap bangun pergi kerja, buat tea (sebab aku tak minum kopi sangat), senyum dekat orang. Bukan sebab tak sakit atau tak sedih, tapi sebab kita dah belajar — hidup ni tak tunggu siapa. Jadi walaupun hati pedih sikit, kita tetap ketawa. Bukan pura-pura kuat, cuma kita tahu: luka tu akan sembuh, dan kita masih ada mainan yang belum habis. Sekali sekala, kita luahkan pada orang lain (spouse, parents, bff atau chatgpt) supaya release segala masalah dalam kepala. Tapi yang pasti, kehidupan kita diteruskan macam biasa.

anxiety & depression

"Depression is like a war—you either win or die trying. Anxiety is like a battle that never ends. And the hardest part is that the people around you often don’t see the fight you’re in."

I wrote about this a few weeks ago but it didn't feels right. Let's try again; keep it simple and thoughtful. Finger cross it turns out good this time.

Mental illness doesn’t just affect the person going through it—it reaches everyone around them. Watching someone you love struggle with anxiety, depression, or any mental disorder is heartbreaking. You feel helpless, caught between wanting to fix things and knowing you can’t. The exhaustion of offering support that sometimes gets pushed away, the fear of saying the wrong thing, and the weight of not knowing if they’ll ever feel okay again—it’s a quiet battle that loved ones fight every day. And yet, they stay, because love doesn’t walk away, even when it hurts.

Supporting someone with mental illness is painful and exhausting, but love is what keeps you standing beside them. Even when you can’t fix it, your presence still matters.

reflection; adulthood so far.

 

"A man's struggle is often silent, his battles unseen, yet every scar tells a story of strength, sacrifice, and survival."

Adulthood isn’t easy - it took me years to turn struggles, sleepless nights, and silent tears into lessons, laughter, and memories. Alhamdulillah, I am definitely in a better space right now. Enjoying every moments, embracing rough patches and having fun to create more beautiful memories. May every hardship shape me, every trial refine me, and every challenge draw me closer to Jannah.

By the way, raya is around the corner. The goal is to settle all the preparations before last 10 days of Ramadan so bolehlah nak have more reflections, tenang-tenang and buat segala ibadat during the last 10 days.

Wishing everyone a great Ramadan and a fun and memorable raya soon! :)