Happy and Miserable At The Same Time

I'm so blessed and happy now to be called a father. I love my son so much. No doubt about that. I love my wife as well. But since Anas coming into my life, it was never the same again. It takes lots of energy, times and mental strength to handle one 10 months old boy. I'm having fun but I wish i can handle things better. I feel my life is not under control anymore  i don't have time to myself but I want him to always be closed to me. In a simple way to understand, I still couldn't really navigate life as a father and husband. It just something is missing but I don't know what. Still trying to figure it out. Wish I have someone to talk to. Not my wife obviously.